/// all that ever holds somebody back, I think, is fear. for a minute I had fear. then I went into the dressing room and shot my fear in the face...LG


andrew garfield is a major babe

ok- so, i've been gone for a minute- a hot, hot minute. but when they say that if you can make it new york, you can make it anywhere they weren't fucking kidding. and that's all i gotta say about that.
now onto bigger and more beautiful things like andrew garfield. yes- the new spider man, i could care less except for that fact that i now have an excuse to stare at him for an hour and half. one things for sure, he's gorgeous and may i add charminggg. i met him couple years ago at fox search light party - i was cocktailing, i about peed because i loved the social network and no one i was working with recognized him. when i saw the social network i didn't even find him that hot - he was awkward cute, but nothing to google about. ANYWAYS- this is how the story goes- i was passing around some horderves and this guy comes up to me asks me if there's soy sauce (i think it was soy sauce, on the horederves because he's allergic) i'm stopped in my tracks by a beautiful british accent, sometimes they can be annoying, but this one was hot i look up and he's grinning at me, my mind goes a million places he looks so familiar, he's so cute ah why do i know him. as i'm stumbling through answering his question it clicks, he's the kid from the social network, andrew garfield ah wahhh it's all a big 2 minute blur of his friend making a joke and some laughter back and forth. i died. so the party went on for a few more hours. he looked like he was with a girlfriend- not that cute, she looked miserable probably because she knew her boyfriend was about to become famous and end up leaving her for a costar wah wah. We would exchange a few words here and there and then at one point i was walking around the pool (it was a rooftop party with a big pool in the center) and i got close to the edge going around the corner and out of no where he wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me back from the edge AND IN THE MOST GORGEOUS fucking voice ever ANDREW SAYS "don't want you falling in the pool love." ahhh wahhh i died, but of course i didn't let him see that i just coyly smiled and said something stupid along the lines of "aw well thanks for saving me." i also recently saw him with his now gf emma stone eating at the restaurant i'm working at- they looked miserable...thank god. haha kiddingg anyways i knew i said i swore of actors, but i'll make an exception- andrew give me a ring when you get sick of dating celebs ;)
ooh yea the whole of point of this is because he's currently gracing the cover of VMan and being interviewed by previous spiderman tobey maguire.



 OBSESSING over gray anything with neon accents, hot pink in particular.
went a little cray on desiretoinspire.net ... what can i say i'm feeling a little crafty w/ all my art supplies back in californi :'[



so since my last post i've moved to nyc and now i understand why the people who move here fall off the radar for awhile because getting settled is not easy & it takes obvious time, but more so i've never felt so exhausted in my life. more than physical exhaustion (yes, i moved here in winter so every time i want to step my foot out the door i've already burned atleast 50 calories- the process begins with layering -two shirts, coat, gloves, scarf, maybe hat, leggings, then jeans or two pairs of leggings, socks, boots, maybe umbrella) you get the jist. i was prepared for this and knew it wouldn't be easy- the biggest part is allowing myself to be exhausted, to sleep in a bit... i really think i'm prbly catching up on lost sleep from when i decided to move here which was in the end of december. selling almost every last thing i owned and at one point searched for and had to have was like a cutting of cords and way way more emotional than i could have ever imagined. yes they were just things, but they were my things that worked hard for. i had built a life for myself in los angeles and a cozy one at that. BUT and there is a big but here, every time i walk out the door with 5lbs of clothes on i'm without a doubt reminded why i yearned to move to this city at just 12years old- the energy is incomparable. its has this certain-as the french would say, "je ne se quois." it can't be explained, but it resonates. it's easy to get caught up in fear, struggle, stress, etc etc when you are introduced to a new situation or other one known as that scary word "CHANGE" (& trust me it was a roller coaster of emotions & still is but it's only been a little over two weeks and i've never trusted my intuition more). granted, i am by no means a creature of habit, i don't even think i've had my hair cut by the same person more than 3 times so i welcome the change and accept the discomfort because really this "newness, unknowing, displaced" feeling only lasts for so long before i know it i'll be riding the subway without  looking up and won't be googling/ yelping every last thing i do. the moment i mention to someone (who lives in ny) that i just moved they start gushing about nyc as if it was their first love, their favorite coffee shop, they are inexplicably infatuated with this city.. this is something i'm not used to in la, typically in la people that are not from california gush about the state (technically they mean so cal) but it's not often you find someone absolutely in love with la- the city itself. don't get me wrong i'm a california girl and i love the sunshine, the beach, the laid back attitude, but i do not miss la- i miss my friends who i consider family, but not the city itself. although i am VERY grateful for my time spent there because i believe i've grown considerably & look forward to unpacking the life lessons & experiences when needed out here. i remember the beginning of my journey when i left the suburbs of home for college in downtown los angeles and how wide-eyed & new to this "real" life thing i was - one my biggest lessons up until now is how fast time flies. when you're down the moment will pass & when your up don't let it pass you by soak it up, soak it up, soak it up & listen to your intuition.. that little thing that doesn't stop knocking. oh yea and never, EVER, forget your worth.




eniko mihalik for numero magazine feb'12

if you were having a hard time getting to the gym or closing the refrigerator i bet this took care of it....


maniamania a/w'12
i always look forward to maniamania's look books and though it's pretty hard to forget abbey lee- i think dree's fair look was perfect.